Monday, October 31, 2011

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween everyone!  I know I've said it here before but I'm not a huge Halloween fan.  But that doesn't keep me from participating in festivities or preventing my kids from doing the same.  Today we've already enjoyed Trick or Treating at Noah's school (we ended up with enough candy that we don't even need to go out tonight) and we're looking forward to tonight!  I even took part in some Halloween fun at work!

Working with the Kiddos...Bald is Beautiful!!!
Me and Nicole
Bald is Beautiful!!!  And a Clown!!!  Out patients loved it!  Our bald heads aren't as cute as theirs!!!
Halloween Parade at school
Optimus Prime led the parade!
Em refused to wear her Little Mermaid dress but still went Trick or Treating
His bag is that heavy!
The flash fired but I love this pic of me and my Mom (except for the few extra chins I have)!  The teachers were 101 Dalmations and the principal was Cruella DeVille!
Looking forward to more fun tonight!!!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

It's OK

I feel like I only blog on Thursdays.  But it's an awesome day to blog because it's Amber and Neely's "It's OK" Thursday!!  So here goes......

Its Ok Thursdays

It's OK
~To cry because of all the bad news happening at work this week
~To not be excited about Halloween being Monday (or all the Halloween festivities going on starting tomorrow)
~To be so thrilled for my bestie and her hubby who are closing on their dream home tomorrow
~To be looking forward to finally meeting Mr Colton!!!  He's so grown now (as in a few months old) but Auntie Jessica still has not snuggled with him yet
~To be excited for the Lightning game on Saturday!!!  Hockey, friends, and a fun event for childhood cancer!!!
~To stare the sneak peak of my kids photo shoot all day, every day!  Jamie Lewis Photography is amazing!!!
~To be excited that it's almost time to for Christmas!!!  Yes, I'm ready for Christmas already!!!

Here's a just a few of the amazing pics that Jamie took (all pictures by Jamie Lewis Photography):
Make my heart melt right now!!!  This is the most amazing picture of them and not staged at all!!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Where do we (I) go from here?

Man am I not motivated for anything.  I don't want to do the laundry, load the dishwasher, cook dinner, nothing.  This has been a running theme with me for a while now.  Actually I think it's all gone downhill since my hospitalization/surgery.  Or maybe even longer than that.  I'm just exhausted.

But exhaustion is no longer an excuse (I hear you chuckling since I've said that, oh, a million times already).  I'm mentally ready to get back on track.  These are the areas I'm ready to work on:
I had posted before how hard things have been for the Hubs and I.  After coming to a realization that I can't blame him for everything that's wrong with us, things have been getting so much better.  We've been spending more time together, even if it's just watching our new favorite TV shows (I have a few good ones but that's for another day).  I feel like things are less stressed between us and we're headed back to the land of actually enjoying each other.  But it's still a work in progress.
My new work schedule is definitely helping in this arena.  I just love being home with the fam on the weekends.  I'm getting to do so much more than when I had to work 2 weekends in a row.  However, this also means that our weekends are jam-packed with stuff to do, people to see.  While this is definitely strengthening us as a family, I really look forward to the weekends where we have nothing to do or when it's just the 4 of us, although I've realized how important it is to spend time with family.  My grandpa taught me that.
My kids are my world.  I just don't know where I'd be without them.  I truly know that I was put on this Earth to be their Mommy.  But there are so many days where I feel like I'm failing them.  Do they watch too much TV? Yes. Do they play outside enough? No. Do I let them get away with too much? Yes. Am I working with Emmy and her talking enough? No. Should I be more strict with them? Yes. Should I be forcing Noah to ride his bike? Probably.  Am I encouraging their creativity enough? No. I think this is a struggle that every parent (not just Mommies) deal with every day.  I really want to be better, not just because they need me to be but because I need me to be.  Last night we had such a great time making little owls.  It only took 10 minutes but my kids loved it (so did I) and now they are so proud of what they've created.  Why am I not doing this more often?
Sounds really weird to be on the list of things to work on but it is.  We are in a food rut in my house.  Same meals week in, week out.  Granted we're not the most adventurous eaters but it's getting boring.  I'm a pretty picky eater, always have been.  But as I'm getting older, I'm getting better.  Em's a great eater.  She'll eat almost anything.  Noah's hit or miss.  He's very finicky but with him, it's all about getting him to actually eat.  He has to eat on his terms, not ours.  I think we may have encouraged his independent, strong willed side a little too much.  The Hubs is a picky eater no matter what he says.  Our problem is everything he likes, I don't like.  Finding the happy middle is the issue.  My goal is to find new, exciting dishes, that are also healthy, to incorporate into our lives.
This is a HUGE area I need to work on.  I have to get back on track with exercise.  I have to get back on track with weight loss.  More importantly, I have to work on liking the Me that I am right now.  All too often I focus on all the things I want to change about me.  Very rarely do I focus on the things that I like about myself.  This is all about embracing who I am, not who I think I'm supposed to be.  This is also going to be really hard.  But this I have to do in order to succeed at improving any of the other areas in my life that I want to work on.

So here's to hard work, sweat, tears, love, cooking, and crazy looking owls we made together!!!
Noah made the 2 owls on the outside and Em made the owls in the middle with some help (well more help on the brown and yellow one obviously)

Monday, October 24, 2011

Kiss the Bride

Happy Monday Y'all!!!  I hope everyone had a great weekend!  I was having a great weekend until my Bulls lost in the last quarter of the game.  Oh was I mad.  So mad that the Hubs told me I'm never allowed to yell at him for the way he watches the Gators.  There may or may not have been yelling, screaming, and slamming of hands during the Bulls game.  What can I say?  I'm a fan!  But then I got over my anger (sort of) when we headed off to my friend Julia's wedding.  Julia is the twin sister of one of my besties. She got married at Sunken Gardens (a beautiful venue) surrounded by her friends and family.  It was beautiful and I'm so honored to have been there to share in her big day.  We had a great time, got to catch up with friends, and drank some (a lot) of wine.
In true Jessica fashion, an over abundance of photos from the wedding!!!
The amazing venue
Me and the Hubs
Here comes the Bride
You may now kiss the Bride
I love this family!!!! 
My new fav picture of us
Love them!!!!
Me and the Beautiful Bride
Me and Kev
Me and my Ousley's (Julia, Jess and me)
Chi O Candle Pass
Me and my bestie Jess
White boys dancing
Love them!!!!
A great pic by the Hubs
Spouse Swapping
 Sorry for the amount of pictures (again) but it was such a great time and such a special day.  The Hubs and I are so blessed to have amazing friends in our lives.

Friday, October 21, 2011

A quick photo recap of the past 2 weeks

Boy have I been slacking on the blogging front!  2 weeks have gone by and no updates.  I'm sorry about that everyone.  So to catch everyone up to speed, I'll do a quick photo recap.

First we start with 2 weekends ago, at Noah's school fair.  Fun Fair has been around longer than I can remember.  I remember spending the entire weekend there because that's what you did.  Now that I'm a parent  of the school, I'm obligated to go.  Everything's come full circle.  Once a student, then alumni, now parent.  Strange.  But anyways, his PreK class, along with the K/1st graders, did a performance of 2 songs.  One was "I like Me" and the other was about a little ghost.  Here's a few pics:
The whole group
With his self portrait
I'm a little ghost and I say BOO!!!
Then we celebrated my Grandpa's birthday.  It was weird not having him around this year but I hope he liked his balloon!
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Then we had our big Disney trip.  We're passholders so we go a lot.  Our kids have grown up spending time at Disney.  But this time was different.  It was the first time that Emmy really had fun I think.  Being 2 and talkative, she was able to laugh at the rides, say hi to all the characters, and just have fun.
I love this castle!!!  I can stare at it forever! 
This face is priceless!!!

She was Snow White all day!!
She loved meeting Minnie but hated cried whenever he looked at her
She loved looking at the Princesses faces 
Her second favorite of all time!!!
Think she's worn out?!?!
Digging up some dinosaur bones
Just hanging out with some random girls
Mulan was one of their favorites!!!

I know this was a ton of pictures but it was the fastest way to catch everyone up to speed.  Plus I just adore my kiddos so I love looking at their pics!!!  This weekend is busy for tomorrow AM, a wedding tomorrow night, and then housework all day Sunday.  Hope everyone has a great weekend!!