Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Sometime you just need a break

There comes a time where you need to take a step back, look at what's going on, and re-evaluate.  That's where I've found myself lately.  I logged on a few days ago and saw that I hadn't posted since the end of April.  Obviously I've taken a little break from blogging, which was totally unplanned, but I guess I needed it.  I've been keeping up with my reading of blogs (not so much with the commenting) so I haven't  been completely cut off from the blogging world but the demands of it had taken its toll.  Unfortunately I was trying to keep up with all of the other bloggers out there. I found myself getting discouraged because everyone else's blogs were taking off and mine wasn't. The posts I was writing weren't the type of posts that I used to write.  They seemed so different to me.  I was coming up with topics just for the sake of getting in a post every day just to keep up.  Bottom line, I had lost the joy I felt when I started on this journey and wasn't being true to myself.

So much has happened in the past 3 months.  My kids finished up school and I now have a soon to be 2nd grader and soon to be Kindergartner.  I had knee surgery.  We had lots of family time.  I dyed my hair red.  And I didn't document any of it.  Sure I have it all on Instagram but it's not the same.  I don't have it on here so when I finally decide to turn this blog into a book, those moments won't be included.

We just got back from a 10 day Disney vacation where I put down my camera and was just present.  Sure I took some pictures on my phone and had my camera for our character meals, but other than that, I just enjoyed myself.  We had so much fun, ate way too much, and made so many memories.  I think it actually helped me remember why I started this blog.  It wasn't to make money.  It was to document my life and my experiences.  Sure, it would be great if I could earn a little off of it but if I don't, it won't be the end of the world. Because bottom line, in 20 years when my kids are grown, I want to be able to look back and have this space to turn to when I want to remember the good days.

Dinner on our last night at the Spirit of Aloha Luau at the Polynesian Resort